It feels a bit awkward to begin again after being quiet for so long. But I'm working on making space for writing because it is so good for my soul.
Life has been such a whirlwind. Mostly, I spend my days chasing after Thea and being amazed at how much she grows and changes each day. Watching her self emerge and observing her and supporting her as she learns to navigate the world is such a gift. I am so grateful to spend my days seeing it all unfold. I used to just nod and smile when people would say something about their child being their greatest teacher. But now I completely get it. Each day, she shows me ways that I can grow - how I can be more patient and kinder and more understanding and less focused on myself. And I am learning so much about how the way that I was raised and how my relationships with my parents created the person I am today.
In addition to the business of mothering, I've also been thinking a whole lot about food. This is partly because after 16 months of subsisting primarily on cereal, I'm trying to get myself back into my healthy ways of eating. But mostly, it's because sorting out Thea's food allergies has been pretty consuming. Since she was a few weeks old, we've struggled with feeding her. First it meant altering my diet. Now it means continuing to tweak my diet and experimenting with foods to find out what she will tolerate. We finally had her tested last week and it turns out she is allergic to nearly everything she had been eating. So now, we pretty much have a vegan baby who is also allergic to rice, oats, and a good number of fruits and vegetables. And if that wasn't challenging enough, I recently started eating a gluten free diet. All this means that we're going to be getting a lot more creative in the kitchen.
So, there you have it - a little hello - a small step towards easing back into this space. I'll be back soon.